In Oceans Deep

I needed to feel this small again.

I needed to stand at the edge and feel something so much bigger and more powerful than I am.

I needed to hear the waves crash on the shore sounding like the heartbeat of the world.

I read a quote that stuck with me—

“How easy it is to believe in the infinite power of God and at the same time to feel that He is unable to meet our personal needs.”

It’s made me wonder— am I so bent on figuring things out myself and “making things happen” that I don’t stop to petition God for my needs and then hold out in patience?

I get so wrapped up in doing things on my own that I forget how small and powerless I am compared to Him.

I am fighting the ocean.

So I stood there at the edge staring into what felt like the eyes of God— clear and beautiful, full of life, full of death, powerful beyond comprehension— and remembered all the ways God has answered my prayers and provided for me in both my tragedy & in my joy.

It’s taken me a long time to trust again.

To hope that good things are ahead.

Standing in the ocean was healing.

Looking into the endless blue— I found that I do believe in a personal God.

A tender God.

A intimate God.

A strong God.

A God who meets our needs.

I want to rely on Him more.

“In oceans deep my faith will stand”

(Oceans, Hillsong United)