“I don’t know why— but the fact that she took the time to compliment me— a complete stranger in the middle of a crowded hallway…”

“I have been pondering the question— “Can your life really change in a year….?”

“…Grateful for people who realize this is different. Grateful for people who understand that this is hard…”

“…I don’t know if this just a me thing or if anyone else feels the same— but WHY is it so hard for me to post a selfie for no reason…”

“…I’ve sat in this uncomfortable space for almost a year now.

This space of trying to move forward with…”

“…My heart is swollen and pressing against my chest so hard tonight. Swollen with the weight of wanting to share my precious baby without it always feeling so sad. Wanting to share her not because she died— but because…”

“… I don't know how to answer those questions or explain why grief feels harder now than it was a year ago, or why it's suddenly hard to talk about her, or why I just want to ....forget…”

“Grief & gratitude.

Both have made my heart heavy and swollen today…”

“… I’m getting emotional sitting down to write what will be my last entry in this journal.

This has been my favorite journal yet because of the depth & miracles— darkness & light…”