Kalea's Birth Story
“…she came in the morning. She was light after dark. She was the dawn we had all been waiting for…”
Alone with One
…The swing where Kalea should have been. The emptiness was too much for me. The grief came rushing back. What if her baby spirit was right there watching us push Payson? What if she was sitting in right there in that little swing? What if she was hoping and waiting for me to push her? Irrational as it was I walked over and started pushing the empty baby swing (sometimes grief is irrational)…
Blue Tape & Grief Exhaustion
…nothing on my to do list will get done today. …there will be blue tape on my walls for one more day. The tape is a striking reminder that we are in the middle of a life remodel. Today, things are left unfinished.
His Hands Make Whole
… There I was in the middle of my aftershocks, coping with grief, struggling with loss, and feeling like the very foundation of my marriage was cracking underneath my feet. And then I see this picture of my family…
Payson's Birth Story Part 3: Birth Center
Of all the possible birth situations I had prepared myself for, I had never even considered the possibility of delivering my baby in the car…
Payson's Birth Story Part 2: Labor
After laying in bed for about two hours, it was obvious that early labor had started. I was excited out my mind! David and I had spent the last few months of pregnancy…
Payson's Birth Story Part 1: Due Date
Well mom. Don't even worry about coming to Utah, because I am never having this baby. I’m never going to wear skinny jeans or my wedding ring again…